Thinking about you

When ye'r tempted to lose heart cos love hasn't yet found you..
Remember: Your next "Hello!" could lead to "I do." or maybe "Goodbye.." no one really knows actually.. The great thing, about not knowing though, is the joy of every waking day brings you and the passion along with it.. realizing in a timely manner, how everything happens for a reason.. until one day.. one can finally say.. "I did well.."

Inspired and happy, I guess.. I just couldn't help myself from floating.. And did you ever get that feeling when you just want to shout out the name of a person.. real loud and just.. get your b*tt up and run to wherever the person is and just hug em real tight and then kiss the sanity out of each other afterwards.. and I mean like.. Grrrrrr!!!! Raarrrrr!!!! Ughh!! Hahaha!!

I miss em so much.. There's none that I wish for, but all of who and what the person is and has..

Just when you thought you couldn't ask for more,
Someone would come knocking at your door.
Even with all the iron walls fencing your being,
This certain hazard will turn into your liking.
Suddenly hearing yourself hum a different kind of tune
Day dreaming about the crazy month of June
Is there a chance that nothing should go wrong
For I am smiling uncontrollably all day long
Yes, I have been happy too quite a lot of times before,
But all crashed into a pit hauling an uneven score
Amidst all of the pain and betrayal,
One needn't hunger for approval.
For at the end of every day,
Your heart will simply just say..

"Everything feels so good."
*and it does, doesn't it?*

Whenever you take a glance on something that could be
You wonder if it is real or just a silly fantasy
For something so great couldn't possibly exist
And somehow your heart makes it hard to resist.
All the magic unfolding at each and every rhyme
Are all the happiness that couldn't cost a dime.
I am worried and keyed up all at the same time,
Cos something so ecstatic may somehow be a crime.
I can not say it is true love just yet,
Though, being limerent is somehow close to it, I bet.
Luck, if you will look at it and see
It’s all just meant to be, if you’ll ask me
Who would have thought I would get by like this
Anxiously waiting for that next passionate kiss
Blessed, I deem my heart and my whole self
No longer placed on an empty dusty shelf
For a new chapter has begun in my life’s blank pages
So for an untold love story can begin its stages.

...

I needn't know everything. I needn't have to be excellent on many field, I understand that I should be good enough though.

I have to learn how to use punctuations. I have to learn how to consolidate everything I am seeing right now. I'm helpless. I don't want to fight back. My little red blood pumpin organ may not be able to handle another ache some time soon.

Pain is a sign of life. Good Lord.. I am so0o0o unbelievably alive then? haha.. Nah.. It's not that painful.. It's kinda aching though.. Huwhaat??!! no0oh!! Pain? yah.. let it hit me.. Too much of it could kill you though.. Could be true for those who is scared of dying. Yeah, I could die later. Just want to enjoy everything while it lasts.. While it's here.. Hurt me! Hurt me real good!!

I'm being too irrational. I don't know what I'm doing to myself. Really. Come to think of it.. Have I ever been sure?? haha..

Heavy hearted.. Couldn't talk.. Oops.. What's that? Fell right out from my eyes.. haha..

Hate rainy days? How could I.. Been getting the hang of it lately, wasn't I?

It's quite a f*cked up world.. You end up getting a dose of your own medicine.. Quite a lot of it in return.. Sooo knowingly try to enjoy but at the same time resist.. Too much of every f*ckin pill kills.. When you think you know everything.. You come up with the most stupid decisions in the world.. You think about the most shallow excuses and try to put profound logic on the statements..

When a prey is hunted.. does it run right through the bullet from a gun shot by the hunter?

Does it crawl up the predator's mouth and smile stupidly until it notice its death?

It doesn't..

Shouldn't I.. f*cking tell myself that I need to stop getting carried away by blissful situations for such emotional turmoil.. huhu.. is and would always be a hazard to my pathetic little self.

What's wrong with me.. PMS? haha! You think?! I really hope it's just that.. And I do hope it is! Wohooh..

Crazy!

Girl, you're messed up! Everybody lies.. Haven't you learned so far? They don't care.. It's easier for them to tell you stuff that ain't true! They'll eventually find reason to break you off into crumbs that you, yourself, wouldn't lick off the floor. F*cking PMS.. I really hope it's just that.. haha!

Help..

I have to be strong.. I can't.. I wont.. haha.. I sure don't

Just when you thought you don't..

You end up realizing you do..

Then you do whatever it is that you can, to prove it ain't..

And it is shoved up to your face realizing it is..

You try to hate..

But turns out.. You can't..

And you won't..

Will I?

Am I?

Here we go again..

You win..