Life and Death

After months and months of blogging, I finally noticed how I really could not spell. I noticed that the heading of my blog read.. "a PEAK inside my fascinating mind.." when it should have been "PEEK".. How silly could one possibly be. Things overlooked.. But they are how they are.. One only needs to lift up a finger.. and do something about it or just be a loser and either deal with it..

Let me talk about being a loser. I'm an expert when it comes to loosing. One thing I could win.. It's loosing. I always lose. Beat that! Haha!

My grandmother passed away just this afternoon. We all knew it coming. I thought to myself.. I would not cry. I thought it would be easier for me to accept it. With all the resentment.. With all the indignity my heart, previously, was feeling.. It all changes when physical death arrives. You tend to hurt and accept everything without a fight.. Hope to be forgiven for entertaining such bitter emotions. The magical thing is, after a life lost.. There are new lives that's being created. It could be in a form of anything.. Wealth.. Friendship.. A new soul.. Something to keep the world spinning.. Something to keep the circle of life flowing.. Something to keep our spirits up.

I learned something new today. A news that would be very difficult to break to everyone. I felt tricked. I felt helpless. I couldn't do anything about it. I am confused. I do not know what to do. Things don't always go out according to plan. Bummer. But that is life.. Even though you plan ahead.. You look at every detail and hope.. It all works out.. But with all the unexpected things that's happening around us. We could only be sure.. that there is a greater force, working out there.. When things are out of our hands. We either embrace them or go the other way around.. Either be happy dealing with them or be repugnant about it. For now.. I'm clueless..