I woke up earlier with a brand new perspective in my life. I feel so light actually. God.. My heart is so overwhelmed by this strange feeling.. It seems like something inside me will burst out.. and I feel like crying too. I don't understand why all of a sudden, I am surrounded by everything positive. I thank God for this undescribable contentment I am feeling.
As always.. I am just curious to know how this magic happened. I know though that when good things happen.. one shouldn't ask WHY?.. but then again.. no harm asking.. HOW? instead right.. =)
I remember this line from a movie I watched days ago. It goes like this "When you get bit by a snake, you're supposed to suck the poison out." And yes.. that's what I did. It took a long time to do it cos I was kinda hopin it would fade out on its own but it didn't.. so I had to force it out.. and goodness.. it has been done alright! I'm smiling all the time cos things are where they should be finally.. I have the grandest family.. the bestest buddies, my little cutie Riane and a great big bag of chances.. chances to grow.. chances to be happy.. and who knows.. the chance to meet the love of my life.. hay.. I also saw myself in the mirror lately.. my God truly blessed me.. haha! I always thought.. people get what they deserve in life and by all the painful past I've been through.. just proves that I'm just that darn stubborn and impatient to see the wonders around me.. and I deserve to get hurt for that.
A fella told me.. "You're just lucky you didn't end up the other way around.." Wow.. so true.. I mean.. like I said.. I have all the chances in the world right now. I have a grand future that awaits me. All I have to do is look forward to what good fate will bring me.. Well yes.. I know.. I'm still not Ms. Goody Two-Shoes.. A little maldita side kicking in every now and then.. But I'm getting it on real well. And yes.. some people will try to screw me up real hard.. but by now.. I know how God loves me so much.. and I've realized that He has been hitting me with His shoes for some time now and I'm just not paying much attention to the hit..
Finding every reason to smile and laugh really isn't that hard when you get to it. Like this morning.. I saw this guy at work wearing a statement shirt saying "KONG is in my pants" hahaha! I doubt it.. haha! Goodness.. sure.. whatever makes you feel happy dude.. whew.. oh and our dog Dirty.. she was smiling at me.. haha! With all the teeth showing like that of a human being.. creepy I know.. but it's really funny too.. I went home having the exact fare.. two rides of jeepney totaling to P14.00.. and guess what.. I'm still making head turns as I walk all the way home.. If they only knew.. may baby na akuuu noh! hehe..
Sunday, February 28, 2010
cOuLdn'T aSk fOr mOrE
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Friday, February 19, 2010
Seriously Ann..
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Tuesday, February 16, 2010
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God.. ang heavy ng pakiramdam ko.. My heart is thumping so hard.. Had my first yosi kaninang umaga.. Three.. Don't you just hate being right all the time.. Will someone slap me in the face and tell me I'm wrong this time.. I guess I got my answer.. Even though I knew it all along.. Good luck Ann.. That's just how the world works.. When will people stop screwing me up.. The thumping is all I feel.. I want to share.. But I can't.. What use will sharing your heart's missfortune to others do to you.. Will it change anything? Will it change the fact na naisahan ka na naman.. It surely won't.. I can't believe I'm smoking right now.. Tears taken from an empty soul.. I can't hate.. There's no more strength for me to do it.. The truth surely is often ugly.. and pain humbles the stubborn heart.. Maybe it's just meant to be broken after all..
Shaking..
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Tuesday, February 9, 2010
I'm gona make it work
The day I found out about her wasn't really as magical a scenario could be.. But every day.. every second and every time.. I fall in love with her more and more. She eases my pain and the mere thought of her takes away all the aches.. Oh how I can't live without her. Literally.. There'd be no reason for me to breathe without her. And all the things I'm going to do now is all in consideration for her. How I wanted it to be just the two of us so we can live worry-free. I wanted to run away from everyone else but there's nowhere else to go. All the fears from the past will somehow, find it's way back to you.. and there's nothing else to do but face em all.. everytime. Going back to work would be like putting my hands on fire, it'll be disgustingly awful.. but somehow, it'll be fruitful for the both of us.. until I can afford to find another job.
"That's not the way it goes angel, I answered your mom's prayers when you shouldn't be there as a human after all.. so fall inlove.. get your heart broken over and over again.. defy your means and feel all the human pain and emotions that you possibly can.. cos you're here not to fall inlove.. at least not today.. I'm gona give you someone.. a little one who needs your guidance.. your true purpose here on earth.. do it right and.. maybe.. I'll give you your heart's fairy tale.."
I made that all up.. but, wouldn't it be a nice explanation as to why I am this way.. a fallen angel who gets her last chance on earth.. great story.. either way Lord, what ever message it was that You were trying to tell me.. I know it's all good.. and I'll take care of her.. even without.. a vampire who got off from a taxi cab.. =')
Just making myself laugh.. but it would really be nice if there's someone out there for me too..
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Thursday, February 4, 2010
Just a bit perked up
On LiFe's jOurNey..FaiTh iS nOuriShmEnT.. ViRtuOus DeEds aR a sHeLtEr.. wIsdOm iS d LiGhT bY dAy aNd rIghT mIndFuLnEs iS d pRoTecTioN bY nIghT. If mAn LivEs a PuRe LiFe..nOthIng cAn dEsTroY hIm. ~> Buddha<~
♥I believe in this. I know this. So beautiful. This is me. Got to start pulling myself back together. Very true Buddha. Will start working on it. Right away sir. Great.. Feeling so good. Excited to start over. I'm so ready. BabyLove, we'll make it.. just you and I.. we're in this together.. I love you baby.. I'll take care of us♥
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Wednesday, February 3, 2010
mY bAbY gIrL
Capricorn child has maturity way beyond her age. She may, at times, put you to shame, when you try to do the typical baby talk with her. Right from her childhood, she will be determined and positive in whatever she does. She is not the one to throw unnecessary tantrums, but she will be able to communicate her disapproval or inconvenience with the same force. After getting her message across to you, she will wait for your answer. In case you say no, she will accept it if the thing is not that important. *wow,God really loves me*
However, if it is, she will patiently wait and wear you down till the time you give in to her demands. With time, your Capricorn baby will become more and more organized. Her shoes will be in the rack, books in the bookshelf and clothes in the cupboard. She wouldn't be much of a prankster and will be more attached to family. There will be only a few close friends with whom she will share his feelings. After coming home from school, the first thing she will do is her homework. All other things come after her duties and responsibilities. *my perfect daughter*
The games of Capricorn children are seldom childish. They usually play the part of teacher, doctor, engineer, mommy or daddy. Strangely, they look pretty convincing in these roles too. They are drawn towards art and music and will spend hours indulging in them. A Capricorn child will never waste her time in useless games; rather she will always be involved in something constructive. You will have to practically force her to go outside and play in the sunshine. She may not be a quick learner, but she will always manage to get A-grades in school. *completely my oposite,love her*
She will move slowly, but in the end, she will leave the other kids much behind her. You may feel that the other kids are bossing her around. Don't worry! She may be patient with such people, but she knows how to take care of herself. She will find one or the other way to get even. A Capricorn child will be interested in the opposite sex, but she will be too shy about it. You will have to handle her feelings very carefully in this area or they may become too closeted.
Unless pushed too far, a Capricorn child will be very pleasant, tolerant and loving. She will give elders the respect they deserve and help you in everyway she can. You will not have to shout at her, every now and then, to get her room cleaned. She will never venture too far from home and will always come back before you start searching for her. *awww..baby ko*
She will be totally practical and will not indulge in the usual childish fantasies. So what if, at times, it feels that she is the parent and you the baby, she will respect you and take care of you when you don't feel so young anymore!
Dear Lord God..I will do my very best to mold her into a decent and good person.
mAy nOt Av bIn a gUd dAugHteR.. NoT d bEsT sIstEr.. nOt sUre iF i wAs eVer enOugh tO bE caLLed a gUd fRiEnD.. pErhAps I aM nOt d iDeaL gIrLfRiEnd.. nEvEr bIn aN eMpLoyEe oF d mOnth.. i'M nOt eVen a wOrtHy oPonEnt cOs i'M nOt fOnD oF cOmpEtiTioN.. hAy.. bUt bEtchA bY goLy wOw.. i'M gOna gIv iT a sHot aT bEiN a gUd mOm..
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