Sunday, November 23, 2008
Stressed out
I've been having a terrible weekend. Let me count the stress I've been burdened with this weekend.
My AUB is missing.. Don't know how I lost it.. Now I don't have any money cos I can't withdraw! Dapat mag papa pizza ko sa friends ko last saturday.. Eh 1k lang out of pocket limit ko that night kaya yun..Bad trip!
My certification got extended cos I screwed up some verification issues (something from work). I have a week to catch up but my voice is gruffy and I need my voice to be very effective sa work right? Plus.. some guys from work are being.. you know.. being BOYS and talking stuff about a Capricorn girl.. and it's kind of uncomfortable kasi basta.. friend ko sha and behave kase ko.. or at least.. trying to be.. hehe.. What I am fearing kasi is baka mag karon ako ng bad label sa work cos of miss naughty Capricorn.. I'm one of the boys and they know that and I don't want that to change.. Hay.. Boys will be boys talaga.. ang lupit non! ang lupit non! BASTA! Couple of things I have to say bout work.. first.. Sobrang behave ko second.. SCORPIOs rock!! (making me smile tuloy.. bad trip!)
A special person I wanted to have as a friend is avoiding me. Ayaw daw nya maging friends kami. I said sa kanya.. A new friend should always be welcome to anyone's life.. Why naman kasi dapat mag rush in and make things complicated kasi diba.. Sabi nya.. Looking na sha for someone to spend the rest ng life nya with.. Everybody wants that naman talaga diba.. I on the other hand needs a rain check on that..
Someone who did a really bad thing to me is getting everything her way. She got away with the crime she did and now she seems to walk around as if nothing terrible happened to me. She's spendng time with my friends and it's really unfair. That's my comfort zone eh and I can't have her moving around where I feel most comfortable with. Not to be selfish or anything I don' want to breathe around where she has been. Joke lang! Sige na nga.. Take what you can.. Wag lang FAMILY KO at BESTFRIENDS KO! Yaan na ung mga bias.. Ganun talaga eh.. It's really nice knowing there are people playing on your team.. Lalo pa when you don't have to impose.. May kusa na mga nag mamahal sayo ng totoo.
Remember the rain last time? It was really awful. Normaly, I take quick baths everyday. But during that time.. I stayed in for almost three hours. I didn't wanted to move.. I wanted to cool down lang hangang gininaw na ko at marealize na I'm late na for work.
It was really messy that wednesday. The rain completely ruined my day. Pero after shift lumabas ako.. there was a very bright and big rainbow. Ang ganda.. however.. It was not enough to fix things for me.. Nakalimutan na ata ako ng tadhana.. helo0o0o0w TadhaNa!! I'm still here.. hehe..
Dear God.. Thanks for keeping me alive.. Thanks po at pinag isa nyo na yung problems ko.. Buti sabay sabay na.. I know you love me Lord.. Sige po.. Unahin Mo po muna sila.. There are bigger problems in the world.. Kaya ko pa naman po eh.. And I know that when I really cant na.. You will be there for me.. For the yoke that you gave me is easy and Your burden is light.. I will come to You when I need a rest.. Lav kita Lord.. Sobra..
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Labels: bad day, heavy weekend, stress
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
i think i'm gona be sick
please don't rain.. I was doing okay lately.. I don't wanna feel sick again.. I wanna feel okay all the time.. I don't want to think.. I wanna be busy.. I want to move til my busyness wears out all the strength in my body and drain out all of my senses.. I wanna be senseless.. (huh? anu daw..) hehe..
God oh.. Look po.. Why ganto.. Sama pakiramdam ko.. Heal me po huh.. Don't let me feel sick again.. No more bad dreams..
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Labels: feeling sick, injured
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Horror flicks makes me cry
"Dad.."
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Labels: movies
Sunday, November 2, 2008
i love You, Lord
By the way Lord.. Thank you for the blessings You have given me and my family. I may not be able to see most of them.. but I surely know deep in my heart that You truly care.. and that everything You do and will.. You do them because You love me.. us.. Thank you for taking good care of the people I love and hold close to my heart.. Thank you for letting me live where people love and truly care for me.. I know I don't want to ask for fame and fortune.. I'm not as sure as before where I am going (cos I thought I already had everything) all that I am sure of is that Your plans are grand and that You will be there for me when I get there (wherever that may be).. Thank you for Your LOVE God.. with that.. I could not ask for anything more.. (every GOOD thing comes along with it)
I miss You Lord.. I'm going to church later.. Can't wait to talk to you.. I love you ever so dearly..