What a girl wants

What do you do when you got nothing to ask for? All these can be very soothing.. I'm glad it's in my system as of the moment. I guess.. I could not think of anything more to ask for.. or.. hmm maybe.. let me see..

I am looking.. I am seeing.. And a bit caught up with what my mind is entertaining right now.. I smile and cheer up with quite a heavy heart. I am happy.. check!

Everything's great.

I feel like sharing my happiness to the world. Or at least to those who would gladly appreciate them. I feel selfish having these feelings all to myself.. happiness, that is.. haay.. couldn't complain really..

Contentment.. basically a state of mind. But when it all comes down to it.. Is this what's really there?? I guess.. yes.. perhaps.. maybe.. Heck.. YEAH!! Of course.. Why ask?! No fair! Heavy heart? huh? Is that right? Honestly.. maybe cos I'm just a bit sleepy.. I'm always sleepy..

Saw something really shiny a while ago while I was on my way home. It was a fancy necklace the girl was wearing. I could tell that it is fake cos the necklace itself was somewhat fading. My eyes was on the rhinestones actually. By the way.. I'm so f*cking hypnotized by stuff that glitters and glows.. Gemstones.. Rhinestones.. Diamonds, I guess.. Those kind of stuff couldn't get enough of.. I think I owned a jewelry with diamonds in it once.. Lost them for some reason.. Given by my grandmother.. Precious stones.. Surely are a girl's bestfriend. Stuff that glitters.. Very easy on the eyes. I want them. It's like.. they're calling out to me. Diamonds? Expensive though.. Wouldn't go out of my way just to acquire one. I'd rather stick with rhinestones.. not expensive.. but just as perfect.. wow.. (mind floating). I am that shallow.. really.. hehe.. I love the white and the aquamarine ones.. on clothes.. shoes.. on my skin.. everywhere.. haay.. Clear images of rhinestones in my mind.. I love them..

Isn't it amazing how you admire something from a little distance. You wanted to get your hands on them, but you just can't cos first.. They're not yours.. Second.. there are other stones in the open.. But only such seems so appealing to you. You want to have them.. Own them.. but can't.. One tries to look for something like it. But ends up with something enough to leave you saying.. "I'm contented.."















Check out the set of ea rings above. What difference does they have anyway. Could one really tell when something is the real deal? They're both perfect right? Perhaps.. I don't speak in behalf of everyone.. For me though, it's just like appraising the human race. Those who can tell are those who are the inexperienced ones. The irony is.. Those who get tricked over and over again are those who think they know everything. They stick to what they know, basing everything from their not so majestic experiences. While as for those who are otherwise.. could easily identify.

In my seemingly emotional life's blog, I find myself currently contented to stuff that are pretty and okay. I couldn't crave for the extremes and day dream about what a perfectly painted masterpieces of a life's journey without any perils, struggles and complications at all could offer.

Isn't it funny how people got stuck to what they think is okay and provided all the benefits of the doubts.. expected things to go bad.. but then.. it went well. Hahay..

I often wonder.. What's the point of arguing with one's self and keep debating with the subconscious.. knowing one could always follow their whims.. the desires and in the end.. realize that desires would always prevail.. no matter how one blinds self.. it would never be wiped out.. because it is there and would only disappear when another is entertained.. either way.. they are desires still..

Look at me.. speaking my mind.. I'm not even sure what my point is. Oh right.. I remember..
I love rhinestones.. hehe..

Ms. Messer-Upper

Just got home from a get together. Quite different from the previous ones I've had. Was having fun.. Hmm..

It's raining again.. What can you say about the rain today? Not everybody loves it. Just when the sun is perfectly shining or the moon brightly glowing and the stars twinkling. A goofy rain comes pouring down and messing things up. Everyone gets upset. Everything seems to be affected. The porma.. The new shades.. (panu mo gagamitin unless may wiper sha diba?).. Camp out.. Bar-b-cue.. Everything has to be put-off.. Dates for some? Partyin for singles and those feeling single din..

I find it entertaining really..

Rainy days? The world can't seem to get enough of it.

As for me.. I can't seem to get enough of what I'm eating right now.. I'm eating Kornets.. Dippin on mayo.. Couldn't compose a serious thought cos I'm eating.. And to think.. I just ate.. haha.. I can't get enough of the thought that one day soon.. I will be eating sa Seaside.. Using these hands.. Aah.. the glorious hands.. Lucky are we who have them.. Take good care of them, yes please.. Your hands and your eyes.. Hmm.. One could live without the rest.. Of course the torso.. the organs.. the genitals are vital too.. hmmm..
Not to be very literal.. Can't be a hand with an eye and an extra something showing.. People would look at you and say..

"Is that thing alive?"

(Imaginin mo naman kase.. Isang kamay na may mata tapos may ano pa!)

Indeed.. Can't be attractive that way.. Nope!
You know what I mean.. The point is.. well.. Need I say more?

Where was I?? Hmm.. I was talking about the rain.. and stuff I couldn't get enough of.. okay..

I couldn't get enough of yappin and blogging and I just can't seem to get enough of combining food and a PC together.. I couldn't get enough of DVD's and the television.. haaaah.. hypnotized by it.. I couldn't get enough of my playlist and adding up new songs.. Ones I couldn't stop from playing in my wonderful and fantasy emblemed mind.. I couldn't get enough of glowing stuff such as rhinestones and fancy jewelries and stuff that glitters.. I couldn't get enough of shoes.. Ones I don't use and ones I don't buy.. I couldn't get enough of admiring pretty things and pretty girls.. huh??

I couldn't get enough of fishy stuff.. (hey.. I'm a Pisces).. I couldn't get enough of beer and the craziness it brings upon my sanity. I couldn't get enough of erotic fantasies and wishing I could be brave enough to put them into reality.. Amfut%$&*.. Halt! Got carried away.. sorry.. (*Blush*)

I couldn't get enough of of myself and how I clumsily say what's in my mind? I couldn't get enough of my procrastination and of my useless inhibitions. I couldn't get enough of my tardiness.. I couldn't get enough sleep and I miss my bed every time I'm away from it.. My dear bed.. Missing you already.. hay..

I couldn't get enough of my Tatay nagging me every time I mess up.

I couldn't get enough of my Momie nagging me every time I mess up.

I couldn't seem to stop messing up.. plus.. I couldn't help messing around.. hehe..

I surely couldn't get enough of caring for other people.. ones who matters.. even ones who doesn't. Beat that!!

I couldn't get enough of welcoming complications with a heavy heart and a helpless smile and dealing with them eve-ree-time they come in?!!

Anyway..

I couldn't get enough of my friends and how they consistently make me laugh.

I couldn't get enough of laughter or happiness.. I'm it's number one fan.. (lalo pa mababaw lang naman ako).. Hoo-hoo.. It kinda bothers me why certain rain showers hinder my every whim. I believe there shouldn't be limits to ones happiness. Go for the extreme.. Unless one's health or other's is at risks. Limits in my life though, I believe, is being justified by God.

I almost hated the first day of the week, but then, I heard Him say.. He wanted to have me on Sundays. Everything was going on smoothly until I started missing Sunday masses. I understand that now. I'm sorry po. This girl seems to be enjoying too much of the blessings she was given, seemed to be blown away by beautiful stuff.

Help me not to mess up.. You gave me enough strength to face anything.. Not to dare you for anything more God.. I'm just saying.. You have been there for me always.. Cos You love me and You will always do.. And You would never ever.. EVER let my family and my friends and people who matters to me.. get hurt.. cos You love me.. and them too.. hu-hu.. Lord, ako na lang po ah.. Wag lang sila.. Hurt me more!! I'm not saying You intentionally hurt people.. I'm just saying.. ako na lang po sana masaktan.. wag lang sila.. pretty pleeease..

A tough cookie.. I think I know too well.. started this with quite a heavy heart. She seemed to have had enough of the rain.. Then again.. gave it a few thoughts.. She figured.. What the heck.. Not everything goes according to her plans anyway.. Plus.. It's just a little rain.. She has been through a big calamity already.. yet, she's standing still PPP.. poised, pretty and perky.. haha.. or at least trying to be.

To be continued.. sleepy na..

And so.. A great month ends..

Whaow.. Could you believe January is over. What a month! Great things happened last month. Some things to smile about when a not-so-good a day comes by.. Met new friends and kept old-young ones. Attended fiestas.. Bonding moments.. Calls from the other side of the globe.. Same old.. Some new.. Been told was bloomin at times.. Other times.. not so.. Gaining some weight.. as I've been told.. YEY! Eating a lot.. Being pampered in ways one can not describe.. Been to places I've never been to before. Explored areas of the new and unchartered territories. Haay.. It's all good. No tears.. Almost though.. No room for complications. A little bit got in the way but of course, none that I couldn't handle.. so far.. Oh! and another thing.. I think I'm being stalked.. haha.. ndi naman siguro.. There's this guy who, as I've heard, is looking for me sa work.. Siguro friendly lang talaga ko.. Eyun.. Bala sha sa buhay nya.. I'm safe whenever I'm at work.. Got great friends there.. Who I'm missing already.. Got into a new team.. New schedule.. 10pm-7am MNL time.. Flunked my score cards and looking forward to the new scan sheet.. asa pa noh? haha.. A couple of my secrets spilled cos I couldn't keep my mouth shut.. Been showing a little bit of my crazy side.. Eh bakit ba.. Masarap kumain eh, diba.. Told stories na di naman tinatanong.. Kwento ng kwento.. ang daldal ko kase talaga.. Ayan tuloy.. I'm naked.. Exposed.. A lot of times sober and drunk.. Nawawalan pa rin ng mga stuff kase kung san saan nilalagay.. Got a bit of Sentiment in me.. which others find.. hmm.. attractive? Thanks much..
To sum it all up.. can I just smile..

Anyway..

February..
Love month.. nyaks! ayaw ko nun.. Siguro.. I'll tag it na lang as.. hmm..
Aayy.. I couldn't think of anything..
Let it pass.. It's just 28 days.. Ahah! 28 days later.. Horror movie yun diba?? That'll do..
Horror month..
eeww.. gonna spot lovers walking HHWW pa.. haha.. pa sweet.. MAG B-BREAK DIN KAYO! joke.. paka cynical talaga.. sige.. good for you guys..

Like what I promised myself before the year started.. I'm gonna leave everything behind.. Let the memories come back.. But that's it.. I couldn't stand a chance if I welcome and entertain such state of mind.. (couldn't even mention the word).. Gonna make the most out of each day.. Couldn't let my beautiful life pass me by..