Thank God for dreams and fantasies

Things my mind is putting out lately.. (huh??)
My thoughts for today..
Love humbles the most mulish of hearts..
Dreams makes someone live..
Pain teaches lessons, but I haven't quite learned them yet.. Let me hurt myself then. Bad teacher!!! c",)
If I can't have you.. I'll find me a guy like you someday..

I don't know what I've been doing.. or saying.. hehe.. I'm drunk from staying up all day..
What's wrong with me..

These things in my mind.. I kinda like them.. What are they anyway? I don't know.. I'm not sure.. I want you.. Every time I wake up, I'm hoping I could see you beside me.. I want to kiss you all over.. Hug you real tight.. I'm floating.. Its weird.. Who?? What?? I think I've lost it..
When you asked me if I wanted to be with you.. I wanted to say yes.. Ow shoot.. Why didn't I? Or did I?? I want you close.. I want you where I can see you all the time.. Yhaks!! What's wrong with me..

Its nice to feel this way.. I like me just this way.. Wanting things that isn't there.. Until they just fade away.. Nothing complicated.. Dream about stuff that isn't real.. No false hopes.. No fake promises.. No pain.. Aww.. I see.. This is how they define a dreamer.. Contented with just living in a fantasy world.. where everything is wonderful.. Who needs reality??! I don't need anything else.. Just my dreams and me.. all set for the day.. shallow you might think.. I am.. makes me happy.. U can all come with me.. Sleep beside me.. Let's dream together.. hehe.. I'm really drunk from lack of sleep.. Nasabi ko na ata to.. haha.. Nasabi ko bang I'm preggy?

sleep muna.. I'll post something sensible when I get back to my senses.. But then again.. why would I wanna do that.. I like me just this way.. day dreaming.. away from the foulness of whoever they claim they are..
teka.. teka.. ayan antok na talaga ko.. yehey..
Thank God inantok din..
05:42pm

Sing muna ko..

You know that I want you babe
You know that I need you
You know that I love you
Just say it

Am I giving enough
Is this it all that should be
When water gets rough
Will you still swim with me
So afraid to come close and maybe too slow
And maybe too much for you to consume

And I wanna know if I could live inside you're world
And I wanna know if I could give it to you boy
*You know that I wanna say it
you know that I need to say it
You know that I love to say it
Our love just goes on and on and on*

owshoot 06:27 na.. sorry baby..
sleep na po tayo..

i'm starting to lose it

"Just when I thought I wouldn't give in.. Just when I thought I had it all under control.. Just when I thought I am invincible.. I met you.. My sweetest downfall.." -Roan

Smiling stupidly right now. Shaking my head and showing my being a sport.. Even if I don't have anything in my hands.. Hands up to life! What can I do? I lost against it na naman. Shows that I have no control over destiny.. which by the way.. I thought I do.. Emotions.. Other people's twisted opinions.. F*ckin LoVe! These are sick unconquerable dimensions that I shouldn't even dream of invading.. better yet.. dare of exploring.. Cos I'm weak.. Defenseless.. My weapons are no match for the ghastly beast always ready to ravage my sanity. Haha! Come to think of it.. What weapons do I have? Smiling cos I don't know what to do anymore. I'm lost. San na ba ako when I was gnarling over my ex? I was better off with that kind of misery eh. Hehe.. Sorry kid.. Di ko talaga balak madamay ka. Funny.. I'm about to use "IF ONLY", but why pa? What for.. shaking head out of defeat and confusion.. couldn't think.. Don't know what to say.. Shoot.. I'm lost.. Lost my spontaneity.. I know though that I'm confused.. and that I don't know where the pieces are.. Where to pick them up.. I'm out.. God.. Where am I.. I don't know what's happening.. Where to now.. Where to start? What's there to think about.. How do I deal with out.. I don't know.. What to hope for.. Who and what to believe in.. What I ought to do from where.. Where to start.. What am I dealing with.. What do we have here.. Whtat I need to understand.. I'd take anything from anyone I guess..

Questions.. Questions..

Oh Lord.. I don't even know what to ask..

LoVe tHis sOng

wHispeRs

dRowniNg fRom aLL theSe rAin.. cOuLdn'T eVen fiNish a decEnt bLog pOst.. gRasPin fOr a cLeaR bReaTh oF fResH aiR.. LonGin fOr tHe sUn's wArm tOuch..

aNgeL, fOrgIve me.. i'M sOrrY.. i dIdn't meAn tO drAg yOu iNto my piTiful fOrTune.. i dIdn'T meAn tO maKe yOu as heLplEss as yOu aRe riGht now tOo.. i Try eVerYdAy tO pUt oN a sMiLe fOr yOu.. bUt mY muScLes aRe tOo nUmb tO eVen coNtroL thE tEarS frOm faLLin dOwn mY chEEks.. i'M toO wEaK fOr aLL tHese.. sEe.. mOmmY jUst gOt fIxEd.. aNd i'M sTiLL tRyIn to gEt oUt of a cUrRenT peRil.. i'm tRying tO shOw mY stRength.. bUt it's dEsTroYing mY sAniTy eVen quIckEr.. pLeaSe knOw thoUgh.. tHat yoUr evEry heArtBeat cOuntS.. bE sTronG bAby.. dOn't Let gO tOo.. i cOuLdn't tAke aNotHer hEarTbReAk.. i'm sCaRed.. iT's tOo coLd.. mY fEarS.. iT's suCking tHe LifE oUt oF uS.. buT I kNow.. afTer aLL thEse stRugleS.. we'LL be aBle tO keEp eAch oTheR waRm.. i'LL pRotEcT yOu uNtiL mY veRy laSt brEath.. yOu'LL bE pRoud oF me.. aNd yOu'LL bE mY eVery haPpiNess.. sTaY wiTh me.. i'LL mAke iT aLL uP tO yoU.. i kNow i wiLL.. sOoN.. sOmEdaY.. yOu'LL sEe..

yOuRe mY pUrpOse.. aNd i LoVe yOu..