I just got home from a movie date. I'm still a lot sprung about the movie I've watched. It was my favorite movie and still is. Everything is incredible. The wedding was so dramatic and grand. Everything about it screams Roan's picture of how her life should be. The courtship.. The mystery.. The attraction.. The need to protect and be protected.. The changes a person will go through just to be part of someone else's life.. The pain along with it.. The fact that no matter how you try to do the right thing.. you often end up doing the wrong ones and how people who loves you will still stand by and fight for you till the end..
Not only have I fallen in love with the saga but it's also partly.. an interpretation of who I am..
Like Bella..
I'm one tough nut to crack.
One of the hardest things to do is to figure out what a woman wants. And by far.. I'm one of the hardest ones to crack. When I'm not satisfied, I would never give up. Either try my hardest to push them away.. Or hold on to them as tight as I could. Either way.. I always get what I deserve. I like the fact that Edward tries so hard to figure Bella out. In my own little life's theater.. A lot has attempted to.. even imprinted on me.. However, in a way.. they kinda disappeared into thin stinky air.. It's that, or.. they're just not my Edward.. All or nothing in real life.
I'm very casual.. a bit complex.. but simply casual..
I don't like fancy stuff. Neither the materialistic type. I wear my hair down.. rarely comb them.. I don't do a lot of make-ups. I like comfy clothes. I don't seek attention and I despise the spotlight. I'm not timid and shy, but I'd like to keep it on the down low. I remember hearing from a gay collegue.. and believe me.. it wasn't the first time I have.."Ang siga mo mag lakad noh?.. Wala man lang ka poise poise.."
Well.. I guess that's the whole point.. For pervs to notice the walk.. Instead of drooling over the tooshie.. hehe.. kiddin..
I am misunderstood.
Some people might think it's okay.. but it's not.. would get whatever chance they could just so they can make the most out of you.. very abusive.. and sometimes, they couldn't see that I'm just nice to everyone.. and that we all have our needs.. couldn't read between the lines..
I tend to be close to people who's vulnerable to develop strong emotions for me. I keep enough distance not to let them fall and enough distance not to hurt them.. and yet.. they either hate me in the end.. blame me for everything.. or fall even more.
I can be a tease.. Haha!
I can't get over how she kept teasing Edward so he would touch her.. Turned on by his strength and control. Oh gosh.. My eyes are half open as I picture myself entrusting my body to a person who's.. Ugghh.. D*mn.. Strong, yet tries to be as gentle as he/she possibly could.. Break the headboard why don't you..
I value faithfulness and loyalty towards my family.
I can play a lot of cat and mouse chases.. but quite frankly.. I know where home is. It's in a place where all kind of emotions revolve around you.. and in spite of these emotions.. true love will never cease to exist. Sort of pandora-ish box kinda scene. Inevitable, but "hope" lingers within.. You know what I mean. I know some envies how the Cullens protected each other from all the odds.. but you see.. that's what I have with my family.. oh man, yes, they get on my nerves sometimes.. a lot actually.. but no one could hurt us.. for we'll be there to protect each other..
I'd die for my very own Renesme.. her name is Riane.
She's unplanned for. She's unexpected. I never thought she would happen and yet.. I would have drank blood for her too so that she may live.. Riane's my life now.. It's a very unbelievably awesome feeling..
And that my friend.. is why I love the movie. They were right on the spot with the family stuff, friendship.. good and bad.. almost everything.. It highlights some of the best scenes taking place in my magical life. God was even there.. In a way, I mean.. Looking at the bigger picture.. Nature.. Love.. Life.. Well.. They may have lived immortal lives.. but My God has eternity planned ahead of us all. La lang.. I love Him so much.. When I was loosing my mind. When I was really down. When the ones I love made it their business to hate me. When I refused to love myself.. The Lord has been there all the time.
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