My Christmas Gift

I'm currently in my room. Still in pain due to the stitches endured from my baby's delivery. I can't believe I had her on Christmas day.. December 25th.. I actually had the bleeding by 3am.. Went to the hospital immediately.. My mom, my sister and the baby's dad was with me.. Upon arrival, a wheelchair and a male nurse was waiting for me cos I called in, prior to that.. I wasn't feeling anything painful at the moment.. Was brought to the 2nd floor so for the doctors.. nurses to examine me.. 1 medical something.. still a long way to go, so, I was sent home.. I was kinda sleepy from the Noche Buena so I rested.. I remember waking up 9am cos of some tummy ache but didn't paid much attention to it cos I was still sleepy..I slept some more.. (Shoot.. this is really uncomfortable.. The stitches are aching..)

I woke up 10am.. I felt like I need to pee.. Just right there.. Just when I was about to get up.. (I had to roll over cos my belly is on the way.. hehe..) my water broke.. Everyone kinda panicked.. I didn't.. I got worried a bit cos I heard I was supposed to feel something painful shortly after that water-breaking thing.. Hmm.. Anyway.. So we're back on the hospital, right? 2 medical something.. I was lying there until 3 pm, waiting for something to happen.. Nothing.. So.. They had to induce me.. They injected a couple of stuff in me which by the way was kinda.. Goodness.. I can't stop talking but this stitches.. Ouch really..

Started this blog last evening.. It' already 11:25 of December 30.. Can't move around.. It's either I'm standing up or lying helplessly in bed.. Currently on my side.. like that of a mermaid.. I'm typing without looking at the monitornor the keyboard cos I'm feeling a bit dizzy.. (talented..hoo-hooh!) Oops.. Hang on a sec.. My shoulders are really hurting too.. Gotta rest.. Gota lota tell yah.. Be right back..

And there I go.. it's already 14:43.. Had my lunch and found a good sitting position.. Anyway..where was I? Hmm..

Oh, right.. The nurses and doctors were all so sweet and all but they weren't ready for us.. They thought I'd be having the delivery by 9pm.. Haha.. Was kinda tellin them in the nicest possible way.. LALABAS NA SHA.. DOC PLEASE.. they said.. hold it. breathe through your mouth.. Don't bite your lips.. Do this.. And that.. And oh God.. I was literally disoriented and I couldn't describe the feeling when I was in intense pain and was being reprimanded to control them! H*ll F*ck!! I screamed NATATAE NA KO and what magic word would make them push the bed so fast towards the delivery room.. Saw them running around like crazy people.. I literally felt like pooping.. I pushed once and then asked..

"Is the baby out na doc?
"Uhuh.. Hanggang shoulders"

I pushed the second time.. Walang sabi sabi.. Haha.. Didn't even thought about the doctor catching it whatsoever..
Then.. I heard her.. She cried for the first time.. Saw them took her to the table nearby.. Para kong nag aabang kung sinong artista yung gaganap sa pelikula.. Suspense.. Excited.. Anxiously waiting.. And I couldn't really help it cos I was so weak.. My eyes they slowly shut.. But then, I felt something on my chest.. When I opened my eyes.. I saw another pair looking at mine.. Nakita ko sha.. Her pretty little eyes.. They seemingly were asking..

"Are you okay momie?"

I remember her face.. Eto yun oh.. Sa baby ko.. She's sleeping right now.. God it was really amazing.. I would gladly relive that over and over again.. I don't care about the pain.. I love her so much..

It's really ironic, cos last Christmas.. I was actually asking for someone in particular.. Just now, I remember how I felt then.. It was really painful.. The need to be loved.. the attention.. the constant bugging-me moments that only one person whom I thought could give me all those.. Wasn't given to me.. To add insult to injury.. The person was given to someone else.. This year, I thought He would give me two.. I was really confused.. I asked for a sign for I may be mistaken.. I said to myself.. If my baby would be born on this specific day.. Then I won't be afraid to make my move.. I won't be afraid to be rejected.. I won't be afraid to fight for that person.. I won't be afraid to look stupid.. I won't have any fears at all.. I'll do everything to win em back.. Whatever it takes.. But I guess, God says otherwise.. He gave something else entirely different.. A gift I will forever be thankful for.. I have her in my arms a while ago.. Now she's downstairs..

Teka.. She's here.. They brought her back up.. hehe..